not too late if you want to change your life's ... I know it's so hard for begins ...
first you can share with your friends remove all your pressure, seem like to be stupid. lol but it's ok ( one condition you must find someone willing to share with you ).
second if you get word from someone, you can select what true on your heart.
heart don't lie about anything believe me!!!!
third you need alone, refresh your brain and get some adrenaline if you like ...
vacation good for a choice ^_^
"so life is simple but we need face it"